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And another year flies by... insight to the cocoon where Indigo Blue Hive came from.

I've been asked about where did Indigo Blue Hive come from, so I'll tell you my story and eureka moments. As a women I am expected to find balance in motherhood, work, friendships, personal interests, relationships, and service to community while doing this feels like juggling on a tightrope above a volcano (peri-menopause)... with a blindfold on. I began this website with a dream, a vision to unite people in community, support a healthier and happier planet, and live a more purposeful life. It was literally a dream I was getting that felt like a calling or message, like that quote from the movie Field of Dreams it whispered to me, "if you build it, he (they) will come" ... I saw in my dreams a beehive, bioluminescent and glowing like it had a heartbeat, this hive was living. Little bees darting in and out of the hive made it light up and shine. In 2019 when I was getting these vivid dreams, I was finishing a 200 hour Yoga Teacher training course in my hometown. I was doing that for me. I really needed it. Being a stay home-mom while working multiple jobs, I kept wanting to connect with other women especially who might understand the ups and downs of womanhood. I felt isolated and socially awkward. I felt lost and unseen. I thought my voice did not matter. Taking this training was one of the best things I've ever done for myself. I met inspiring teachers and friends who felt like a warm hug. I realized how important sisterhood was to me during this time. I naturally began to sort though childhood trauma and yoga helped me work though the arising old wounds. I let some shit go! The work I do now and care about is dedicated to taking action on climate change and environmental justice. This work is a heavy load in Nebraska, and has become more difficult. I work full time for a nonprofit and sit as an elected official/Director on a Board too. Yoga and meditation for me was something that helped me work through the stress and anxiety of my work and helped release things no longer serving me/issues outside my hands. I hoped to share yoga and meditation with others in an outdoor space where they could be supported, seen and safe. I also loved to be in nature and knew how much that helped smooth out my rough days. I hoped to bring people to beautiful spaces in nature allowing them to see the value of trees, feel the breeze and hear birds sing. I am no guru. I believe when you give people the space, skills and tools they can heal, help and uplift themselves through art, breathwork and gentle movements. I launched this website as it took about a year to develop, create and save money to put toward this dream seed. The timing was odd because the covid pandemic hit weeks after the website started. As we all navigated that terrifying time, I realized this dream seed would be helpful some day. People were scared to just breathe, people were scared of dang near everything, some still are... I had years of trauma I was unpacking and many people had added trauma or anxiety from the pandemic. Just holding hope and a vision for this Indigo Blue Hive community. I nurtured the dream year after year and holding space for hope was essential for my own survival when I went through a major medical situation in 2022 and 2023. I experienced first hand the need to recover from a massive surgery, allow others to help you (those that are meant to be there will be there), and trust there would be better days ahead. After months of recovering from a double mastectomy with reconstruction I went through the realization that life is short, it doesn't wait for you to believe in yourself or your dreams, it just keeps tickin. Recovery was also emotional and mental work as much physical healing and it was all excruciating. I almost stopped this website and gave up. I could barely move my arms, my shoulders, back and body was kinked, numb and forever changed. I didn't think anyone would like a yoga instructor whose movements were now limited and weak. I found that thing called hope rising up in me, because as we know from another movie quote, "All rebellions are built on HOPE" (Star Wars). I asked my Ego to hush and said to my hurt and scared lil girl inside that if I stayed authentic and honest I can do it. And, maybe I can help more people who relate to having mental health struggles or body image issues, eating disorders or good trouble misfits like me. I am an ally for my diverse community and offer solidarity. Slowly this hive grows as I offer art, yoga and wellness events in my local community (community calendar for any upcoming events). Art is an amazing form of healing and expression. Creating art in community is magical. Sharing offerings and connections with other local artists and yogis as they hold space for dreamers like me, we collaborate and support each other. The idea the yoga community would be open-armed to my dream was a bit naive. I can tell you by my own experiences not all yoga studios and teachers offer safe spaces or non-judgmental instructors. There is a business and competitive aspect and clicky group thing for some who are privileged enough to have studios. There is an intimidation factor with not having a certain sized body, or dressing in something not lulu lemon. This said, there are some fantastic places and people in Lincoln you can connect with who are really amazing teachers and yoga instructors! Trust your gut for the studio spaces and people who light you up inside. I am grateful for the teachers before me. Thank you to the supportive men and women who have help me along this yoga journey and intentional living. The idea of living with intention, for something bigger than just me, this is what I am here for and we have work to do. In 2025 it was personal for me to lighten up on myself and take time for mental health and self care focus. I am still moving through health hiccups so giving myself grace as my time and energy to this website ebbs and flows. Good news - I am publishing my book, The Wise Ones, soon! A beautiful children's book (and optional gentle yoga practice) that will speak to the Inner Child in everyone. My mantra for 2026 - I am light and I am loved. The universe supports my dreams and creates love to support our planet. Again friends, there is good trouble to be had and important work to do. Let's shine!
I've been asked about where did Indigo Blue Hive come from, so I'll tell you my story and eureka moments. As a women I am expected to find balance in motherhood, work, friendships, personal interests, relationships, and service to community while doing this feels like juggling on a tightrope above a volcano (peri-menopause)... with a blindfold on. I began this website with a dream, a vision to unite people in community, support a healthier and happier planet, and live a more purposeful life. It was literally a dream I was getting that felt like a calling or message, like that quote from the movie Field of Dreams it whispered to me, "if you build it, he (they) will come" ... I saw in my dreams a beehive, bioluminescent and glowing like it had a heartbeat, this hive was living. Little bees darting in and out of the hive made it light up and shine. In 2019 when I was getting these vivid dreams, I was finishing a 200 hour Yoga Teacher training course in my hometown. I was doing that for me. I really needed it. Being a stay home-mom while working multiple jobs, I kept wanting to connect with other women especially who might understand the ups and downs of womanhood. I felt isolated and socially awkward. I felt lost and unseen. I thought my voice did not matter. Taking this training was one of the best things I've ever done for myself. I met inspiring teachers and friends who felt like a warm hug. I realized how important sisterhood was to me during this time. I naturally began to sort though childhood trauma and yoga helped me work though the arising old wounds. I let some shit go! The work I do now and care about is dedicated to taking action on climate change and environmental justice. This work is a heavy load in Nebraska, and has become more difficult. I work full time for a nonprofit and sit as an elected official/Director on a Board too. Yoga and meditation for me was something that helped me work through the stress and anxiety of my work and helped release things no longer serving me/issues outside my hands. I hoped to share yoga and meditation with others in an outdoor space where they could be supported, seen and safe. I also loved to be in nature and knew how much that helped smooth out my rough days. I hoped to bring people to beautiful spaces in nature allowing them to see the value of trees, feel the breeze and hear birds sing. I am no guru. I believe when you give people the space, skills and tools they can heal, help and uplift themselves through art, breathwork and gentle movements. I launched this website as it took about a year to develop, create and save money to put toward this dream seed. The timing was odd because the covid pandemic hit weeks after the website started. As we all navigated that terrifying time, I realized this dream seed would be helpful some day. People were scared to just breathe, people were scared of dang near everything, some still are... I had years of trauma I was unpacking and many people had added trauma or anxiety from the pandemic. Just holding hope and a vision for this Indigo Blue Hive community. I nurtured the dream year after year and holding space for hope was essential for my own survival when I went through a major medical situation in 2022 and 2023. I experienced first hand the need to recover from a massive surgery, allow others to help you (those that are meant to be there will be there), and trust there would be better days ahead. After months of recovering from a double mastectomy with reconstruction I went through the realization that life is short, it doesn't wait for you to believe in yourself or your dreams, it just keeps tickin. Recovery was also emotional and mental work as much physical healing and it was all excruciating. I almost stopped this website and gave up. I could barely move my arms, my shoulders, back and body was kinked, numb and forever changed. I didn't think anyone would like a yoga instructor whose movements were now limited and weak. I found that thing called hope rising up in me, because as we know from another movie quote, "All rebellions are built on HOPE" (Star Wars). I asked my Ego to hush and said to my hurt and scared lil girl inside that if I stayed authentic and honest I can do it. And, maybe I can help more people who relate to having mental health struggles or body image issues, eating disorders or good trouble misfits like me. I am an ally for my diverse community and offer solidarity. Slowly this hive grows as I offer art, yoga and wellness events in my local community (community calendar for any upcoming events). Art is an amazing form of healing and expression. Creating art in community is magical. Sharing offerings and connections with other local artists and yogis as they hold space for dreamers like me, we collaborate and support each other. The idea the yoga community would be open-armed to my dream was a bit naive. I can tell you by my own experiences not all yoga studios and teachers offer safe spaces or non-judgmental instructors. There is a business and competitive aspect and clicky group thing for some who are privileged enough to have studios. There is an intimidation factor with not having a certain sized body, or dressing in something not lulu lemon. This said, there are some fantastic places and people in Lincoln you can connect with who are really amazing teachers and yoga instructors! Trust your gut for the studio spaces and people who light you up inside. I am grateful for the teachers before me. Thank you to the supportive men and women who have help me along this yoga journey and intentional living. The idea of living with intention, for something bigger than just me, this is what I am here for and we have work to do. In 2025 it was personal for me to lighten up on myself and take time for mental health and self care focus. I am still moving through health hiccups so giving myself grace as my time and energy to this website ebbs and flows. Good news - I am publishing my book, The Wise Ones, soon! A beautiful children's book (and optional gentle yoga practice) that will speak to the Inner Child in everyone. My mantra for 2026 - I am light and I am loved. The universe supports my dreams and creates love to support our planet. Again friends, there is good trouble to be had and important work to do. Let's shine!


 
 
 

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